A call for musicians to join the band “Abuse Nation”



I am looking for musicians who would like to be part of a band called Abuse Nation. These musicians would preferably be abuse victims themselves but people sympathetic to abuse victims would be more than welcome. The songs would be about abuse. That could be a song about verbal or emotional abuse or about sexual abuse or human trafficking. While I write songs myself, I am hoping that the other members of the group will contribute songs, creating a variety of music.

Due to the that fact that it’s unlikely that all of the people interested  in a group like this will live in the same area, I expect this will be a virtual group. If engineering and mixdown is needed a kick-starter will be created to fund that.

The long term goal of this band is to be the symbol for a brand, also called Abuse Nation.  I have found that the majority of the non-abused population are unwilling to discuss abuse, blocking any substantial progress in strengthening laws and helping end abuse. I have settled on the idea of using music due to my feeling that people will listen to music about a controversial subject before they will take time to read a book or watch a movie or television show and they will do this without a lot of conscious thought. Perhaps it’s the fact that music seems to speak to listeners at a deeper level and passes the internal censors without trouble.  I am hoping to put this music on YouTube initially and eventually, have it played on the radio under the “Abuse Nation” brand. In the long run I expect that Abuse Nation will become a musical brand that is accepted by radio and internet listeners. What people become used to, they tend to accept.

The first contribution to this collection of music comes from me and can be found at:


I can be reached at abusenation@gmail.com

Neil Newtonabusenation


Book review of “Captivated by the Winter King” by Mistral Dawn.

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This book is very unique and not at all what I expected. The problem with labels is that they create expectations that often keep you from reading a book. I would say that “Captivated by the Winter King” is a book that defies categorization. The term “Erotic Fantasy” made me think of various mythical species becoming “friendly” with humans, with abandon and just for the sake of it. What I found was something very different.

Kate Is suffering in a dreary and hopeless abusive relationship. Robbed of her self-confidence by her mother and her battering fiancée, she has settled for a relationship that is toxic and dangerous. Fortunately for her she has an epiphany and sees the writing on the wall: she must leave or risk horrible injury or death.

Her run for freedom takes a strange turn when a cat runs in front of her car, causing her to lose control. In an instant she is pushed through a portal which opens long enough for her to leave the earthly plain and enter the land of Faerie, a land of magic, gods and goddesses. Waiting for her is the King of the Winter Court, an immortal who, without knowing it, has spent his incredibly long life in a holding pattern until Kate arrives. Within the land of Faerie the concept of a single soul mate is very real and Kate is just that for the King of the Winter Court, something blessed by the Goddess of the land.

What this means for Kate is that she will become the Queen of the Winter court, a position that is both all-consuming and dangerous. Being the Queen will require her to hear cases that involve grievances brought to her by Fae nobles, a dangerous task in itself.  What is worse, most of the Fae consider her beneath their notice and, hence, in no position to consort with them, let alone judge them and decide their fate. Worse than that, she has no choice whether to take on these roles; it is illegal for humans entering the land of Faerie to return to the human world. The law, coming from the Goddess, exists to protect the Fae from violent and greedy humans.

Kate Is skeptical at first, not wanting another male to dominate her life and take on a world full of volatility and unbridled ambition that threatens the continued reign of the Winter King. And that brings us to incredible skill with which Mistral Dawn creates an alternative world. The Fae and their culture is fascinating, combining otherworldly magic with very human motivations and jealousies. Imagine the Winter King as man who is tens of thousands of years old, a man that was once a god who lost his godhood gradually to be left as the king of the Winter court. As his strength has waned, ambitious nobility have begun to set their sights on his throne.

As I mentioned, this book does have more than a small element of erotica, something that I approached with trepidation; I am not a fan of erotica. What I found in “Captivating the Winter King” was erotica that is not gratuitous but erotica that fits the path of the story and the psychological state of the main character, Kate.  Kate’s evolution from a wilting flower, devoid of confidence, to a new person is directly linked to the sexual dynamic between her and the Winter King, Ankou. The Winter King, during his long life, has developed sexual appetites that are not vicious but, in some ways, therapeutic, though they do involve some consensual use of pain and bondage for sexual gratification.

What is fascinating is watching the transformation of Kate throughout the book. Her considerable demons are exorcised by her emotional and sexual relationship with Ankou which seems to be part and parcel with the culture of the land of Faerie. To my surprise I found the “erotica” was integrated with the greater whole of the story with great skill.

I am looking forward to reading more of Mistral Dawn’s books in the future. I would recommend this book to anyone, even if they are a bit leery of erotica in general.

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The Railroad-2nd Edition on Amazon

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    On June 1 the second edition of my book, “The Railroad”, will be released on Amazon, re-edited and reformatted. The book is very personal but it also touches on issues that affect all of us.

    The book was inspired by a personal experience on the day of what is probably the greatest disaster in U.S. history. Of course I’m talking about 9/11. It’s still strange for me to see myself in an epic disaster but that just proves that these things can happen to any one of us.

    I spent a half an hour in the subway, underground, less two blocks from the World Trade Center as the twin towers were collapsing. Oddly, I didn’t know what was happening, only that the train had come to a screeching halt, so violently that it knocked me off my feet. There was no noise, only occasional meaningless announcements from the conductor.

    I was in the car with approximately thirty other people. It was like standing in a pressure cooker as we waited for whatever the transit authority could come up with in the way of rescue. Needless to say the expectations weren’t high. In the end they came through, doing something that no subway train had every done, backing up into Wall Street Station.

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    World Trade Center incident. Subway in dust-filled Wall Street station is evacuated. Original Filename: 64j0v00m.jpgvia Flatbed Web

    “The Railroad” begins with this incident setting the stage for the rest of the story. In the book, the protagonist, Mike Dobbs, is in the subway in my place. Unlike me, the effect on his life is devastating and he cashes in his high powered Wall Street life style for a dingy weekend house in upstate New York. Depressed and angry, Dobbs starts to waste away, drinking and watching television. That is until he meets Eileen Benoit and her daughter, Megan. Both are running from an abusive father and husband, Mike Benoit and they find refuge in Mike’s run down house.

    I’ve spent a lot of time wondering how a real, horrifying event became linked to child abuse in my mind. Writing is an odd thing; the mind makes connections that don’t necessarily follow an obvious path. But after years of reflection, I’m reminded of the worst part of 9/11: the aftermath. Depression was rampant. The parks were filled with victim’s children and spouses, creating small shrines to their lost family members. Candles were everywhere, forming rivers of wax that would pool at the curbs. Every available piece of space on walls, street lamps, and doorways were filled with handbills asking the awful question, “Have you seen this person?”. Each handbill showed a smiling face of someone who was most likely dead. Despite this, the message was that each victim’s family was looking for their loved one, “last seen on the 102nd floor of tower two”.

    While many people fared far worse than I did, courting dysfunction ranging from full on clinical depression to  PTSD, I also was consistently anxious and immobile. For me and many other New Yorkers, the world had crashed in; the very fabric of our lives was ripped apart. Though most of us were still living reasonably pleasant middle class and upper middle class lives, just below the façade of normalcy lived a feeling of utter hopelessness. It was there in everyone’s eyes and in whispered conversation on the subway or in restaurants.

    For the characters in “The Railroad”, hope is something that is a memory. For Eileen Benoit the roof has fallen in. She is a fugitive, living off the charity of others. Her greatest hope is a shadowy organization that moves fugitive mothers and daughters between safe houses. The lack of hope, the shaky foundations is a metaphor for my experience on 9/11. And like my experience on 9/11, Mike Dobbs and Eileen are forced to transform in ways they never imagined.

    I hope you will share my tale of hope and transformation, “The Railroad”, available on Amazon on June 1st.